"Journeying to the rainbow's end is about allowing
yourself to be open to change..."
Forrest Robert Stepnowski
I am a recently published writer and poet who hopes to help people discover their own voice, find empowerment, and discover they are not alone.
POEM OF THE MONTH
"Chasing the Rainbow’s End"
Once upon a time, as the tale goes
There was a little boy, odd, but loving and nurturing
But scared by painful memories and living night terrors
I sit in the center, trapped by four walls
Going crazy to the confinement of my soul
Debating what is reality and what is fantasy
Closing my eyes to daydream my fears and tears away
Wanting to escape into yesteryear
Remembering it’s my past that tends to haunt me
Whatever happened to the fairytales that made our dreams come true?
And our desires become reality
But my childhood ended before my adulthood really began
I see the rainbow and its vivid colors that reach the heavens
Wishing they would remain forever in the twilight of dusk
Like a midsummer night’s dream
Chasing the rainbow hoping to find the end
But it taunts me so
The end always escapes me
I come to and face reality and wake up from my daydreaming
Rediscovering the hurt and the bruises I thought I healed from years ago
Do I see the rainbows end within my grasp?
I stand underneath the center of the rainbow
To the left I see my past and the journey of healing
Becoming a stronger man
Still standing underneath the center of the rainbow’s peak
To the right I see hazy images, future events that have yet to become
I become frightened, like a child who constantly lives in the dark
Losing my breath over and over again
Why am I constantly afraid of the dark?
When the dark has been my home for so long
I begin to shake off the haze like a lost boy in neverland
Can I rise from the tattered puzzle pieces that were my life?
Or do I constantly ride the rollercoaster of highs and lows
Chasing rainbows over and over again
Hoping to catch the unicorn so that my dreams will come true
Or is this just another delusion of make believe
What will I find at the rainbow’s end?
Will there be a pot of gold or a leprechaun who will grant me a wish?
When will I grow up from my land of make believe?
The truth is always hard to swallow
Why do I constantly feel trapped under the rainbow?
Am I suffocating or being forced to realize that the rainbow’s end is a myth
This is the rainbow of life
Sometimes the colors are vivid and beautiful
Sometimes the colors are faded and dismal
My journey to the rainbow’s end is enduring…
Never ending, never final, with pain comes healing
Empowered, Strengthened, Enlightened
#RRBC Book of the Month Author Recipient January 2019
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What has #RRBC done for me?
In 2017, I took a chance and finally pursued publishing my first collection of poetic works entitled "Journey to a Rainbow's End." With the help from many friends and mentors my collection was published through independent publishing in the beginning of May 2018. With the encouragement of another indie-author, I joined a fabulous book club called Rave's Reviews Book Club (#RRBC on Twitter). In a short time, I have met so many wonderful writers, illustrators, and poets with major thanks to the support that RRBC provides many independent authors, like myself. But at the beginning of the year, I was honored and surprised by becoming one of RRBC's January Books of the Month!
It has been less than a year, and I have already received such great appraisal of my poetic works and writing style due to the great members and leadership of RRBC. The mentorship and guidance I have been provided in the short time goes far beyond learning how to get published, but it has inspired me to push further with my writing, as well as inspired me to continue promoting my first collection, which has taken off in ways I could never have imagined, with major thanks to RRBC. Words cannot simply share my gratitude for the support I received in the past 6 months, let alone the past couple of weeks. I have started receiving emails and messages from people all over the world who have read my book and asking me when I am publishing more. I am truly humbled.
My poetry and writing style are about helping others find their own voice in the world; helping escape the pain, or stereotypes that society has thrown at them. That is what the literary arts is about, and the fact that RRBC continues to encourage writers of all genre, caliber, age, or culture, just makes the writing community an even greater world to be a part of.
Thank you RRBC for making me one of your January 2019 Books of the Month! You may have not known this, but my birthday was the 13th and this was an amazing birthday surprise.